these days have been messy, every morning, collected the reports and pics,translated the overall news and posted to Orlando Love
http://elflady.com/orlandolove/showthread.php?p=558500

at first I was utterly excitied, i just couldn't believe,because we always ask ourselves ask the holy god when he will come to China...but this time,he did come! He's just been only 2hours flight to Shanghai.
I didn't realize he's already mess up my mind.

Then, I became calm and understand he's still so distant to me, even we've never been so CLOSE...sigh

看到北斗的BLOG有一篇这样的有趣的东东～所以也拿来玩哦～http://blog.5d.cn/user39/lsqcsc/200710/444722.html

1、你现在正读的书：
数字城堡（真一般，还是《天使与魔鬼》好看）

2、你打算要读的书：
韩波的传记

3、你读过后最觉上当的书：
《喧哗与骚动》——它的名气和给我感觉根本不成比例，大概是翻译太烂了？

4、你读不厌倦的书：
韩波的作品集（包括法国象征派各位诗人的作品）、大仲马的作品集、金庸的作品集、王尔德的作品集、《红楼梦》、《小王子》、《LOTR》、《精灵宝钻》、《呼啸山庄》、《奥兰多》、《生活在别处》、《美丽新世界》、《追忆似水年华》、《梁宗岱美学论丛》、《雅趣四书》、《聊斋志异》

5、你试着读了多次，却一直啃不完的书：
《尤利西斯》

6、你读过还拼命推荐给人的书：
《小王子》、王尔德的童话

7、你现在就预备留给老来退休后读的书：
《法华经》、杜拉斯的书

8、你小学时最爱读的书：
神话、历史、考古、自然科谱类（尤其是天文地理）

dearest  nariel_vardamirsent me this article. i was utterly shocked by it, coz how Numerology explained for his situation from beginning of 2007 egregious resembles the oususpections the reason of his changes...

i'm feeling weird, nervous
and heart-aching...
i never expect that... i HOPE we were wrong we only see the illusions~plz!!
but the article proves what we worried for him is mostly right(sigh)

i ain't a mysticist, but i strongly believe it's reality
his pictures' flashing in my brain
january, febuary , match, april...

>_<
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昨晚偶梦见开花了
在一个温暖的一个环境里，像是茶厅或者咖啡馆

我和开花挨着坐，在劝他些什么……还给他礼物（就是那天买的那串西藏天珠啦），他甜蜜地微笑着～就像照片里面那样摸着卷毛对我说，（大致的意思是，记不清了）我这样子让你们担心了吧，我会好起来，不要担心我啦……

he says. "I was really sad to say goodbye to that series of films, but Legolas is still a part of my life in one form or another. I still think about him and he's still kind of out there. So is Will.

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则为你如花美眷，似水流年……
 
 她那明艳的秀色固然已经一去不复返，可是那描不尽的端庄，说不尽的风韵，依旧不减当年。这份端庄，这份风韵，我以前也见过；可是这一对当年顾盼无人的眸子今天透出一脉凄凉而柔和的光彩，那是我从未见过的。

——摘自《孤星血泪》（上海译文出版社）王科一 译

well, most positive comments i've read said he's now less confused,and became more "adult"..
but how u think of "adult"?
oh plz tell me what the hell "adult" is?
personally, i think it means the weariness and disillusionment after he came though all these years...

he was not a simple goofy boy, never was, he knows what he really needs, but he didin't want / can't(or not the right time to) come out in the past~
now,he's able to say by taking advantage of the freedon he gained from his career.
freedom aslo comes with price...no other way...the brightness in his eyes, sweet giggles, the lines of his canthus and chin, the hungers and passions he poured to someone, as well as other things that "adult

经过很多事情后，往往会想起最初留在脑海的印记，好像预留在那里的一样，慢慢浮现了出来。
最近突然哭不出来了，无论多么感到悲伤都哭不出来……
连眼泪都在背弃我吗？

梦里忽然来到布宜诺斯艾利斯的街道，曾经有两个男人住过的小房子，他们欢笑他们吵闹，还有灯、还有血、还有衬衫和护照，Happy together但寂寞永远挥之不去……
熟悉的剧情，但却变成了另一对身影——一样的任性和眷恋、一样脆弱的侧面，一样多情的烟圈，连头发都烧成过眼云烟……

只怪那眼神如春光，美丽而伤人～

梦里的伊瓜苏，为了什么感动？泪水飞泄千里……这一边是巴西，那一边是阿根廷

在许多年以后，还是令我回味不已

开花……我求求你……你要OUT就OUT，你要吊马子就吊马子……
今年以来我已经好几次差点被你搞出心脏病来了……
求求你不要再这样了！！

偶的神经啊……暴走ing……

from Orlando Love

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